I Used To Be.. 3 Poem by Ala elouri

As i opened the book of the past..I knew that it was once real...
I loved you yes ofcourse..But you never understood how i really felt..
I realized that I used to be weak without you.. And when i said I couldnt breath, I saw that i can breath without you.. I wonder why i said such things.. Now when i look back, i find it ridiculous..I used to be like that.. But now i have thought for hours.. That it is wrong to have loved you..It was wrong ti gave cryed those nights for you.. And missing you was the biggest mistake.. I realized I used to be a flower that only grew when you were in my life.. But now, I am happy and exicted to see how life can be with out being like how i used to be..

I know if your here, or not i will grow.. I will live my life.. Cause as i wait my eyes keep crying, As i wait i am waiting for someone so far away.. That is hard to stay in place... Believe it or nt I will be better than how i used to be.. I know Our hearts will still be in love.. But My love, i need to start living nt how i used to be...3.. I have to let you know that my love isn't something that can be sold in a minute or two.. My love is valuable full of warmth and passion.. But when you sell in a minute.. Then i will have to move on and fly and live as how i deserve to.. I deserve better, So because of that.. I will survive..And will never live like how I used to be...3 Forgive me my love..