I Want ''me''. Poem by Ferrizza Rivera

I want the old you,
I want the old us,
But what I really want right now, is the old me.
I changed..
I changed a lot.
I became more selfless.
Yes, I can tell.

I want numbness right now. Please, I'm begging.
So, I wont feel the pain.
The pain that I built in my head.
The pain that you caused me.
The pain that you're causing me.

I grew tired.
Not to live,
But to love.

I love you more than you can imagine.
I gave my all to you. Everything.
You know that it was everything.
You can tell.

I opened my book for you.
Just for you.
You thought I was a good book..
to read,
to give your time,
to make an effort.
But perhaps,
You realized that you were wrong.
You were wrong about that book.

It's a mess.
The chapters aren't that exciting.
The characters in it are not that special.
So, you closed the book.
Or rather, you're about to close it.

We were happy.
But what happened?

Are you tired too?
Not to live,
But to love me too?