*** I Want Out*** Poem by Monicalife Martinez

Do you know what you are doing?
Inside i die a bit,
Hard to breathe,
Im feeling trapped,
Not by emotions,
But by the fact that i cant fight back,
Im trapped by who you want me to be,
Trapped and ignored,
Pain fill my mind,
I would rather be dead,
Than carry on being reminded,
Of the battle i fought,
That just seem like a story to you,
I cant make you listen,
I cant make you understand,
But stop bring me down,
Im bearly afloat,
And you wanna tell me you understand,
But loose some weight.
You dont care if you trigger me,
My life is more important,
Yet im bearly holding on,
Trying to pass as normal,
And you putting more on my plate,
I pretend i have it together,
Because when im around you,
I feel crazy,
I cant get a word in,
When i do,
You ignore,
Is it my therapy or yours?
I cant tell anymore,
So close to saying forget it,
I deal with it myself,
No amount of money is going to make me happy,
All i want is a normal life,
Where i can function,
Where i can relate to people my age,
Is that so much to ask for,
No amount of praying is going to fix this,
I seriously want out,
I dont want to deal with this any longer.