Monicalife Martinez Poems

Nothing i do is right,
No matter what i say,
You say im not truthful,
Who are you to judge?
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I know who i am,
Why must you change me?
In a world im not accepted,
Yet when im drowning,
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Why am i trying?
So tired of trying.
I remember where suicide attempts,
Was a game of roulette,
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I use to be a girl who cared,
Now not so much,
Fake promises and hope,
Reminds me how fudged up i really,
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I ask myself,
Why am i still hanging on?
To a life that just repeats,
People want to help,
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Is it wrong?
I can't be this honested,
It either "you still want to live" bs
Or you playing mind games,
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What is the point?
I don't even know anymore,
The clouds are dark,
But there never rain,
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There are no words to explain,
All i left was pain and hurt,
I could not fight the trauma,
It gotten the best of me,
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Do you know what you are doing?
Inside i die a bit,
Hard to breathe,
Im feeling trapped,
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I wish i could fade away,
Lay in the ocean and escape,
I wish just like the waves,
I'll become part of the sea,
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