Nothing i do is right,
No matter what i say,
You say im not truthful,
Who are you to judge?
...
I know who i am,
Why must you change me?
In a world im not accepted,
Yet when im drowning,
...
Why am i trying?
So tired of trying.
I remember where suicide attempts,
Was a game of roulette,
...
I use to be a girl who cared,
Now not so much,
Fake promises and hope,
Reminds me how fudged up i really,
...
I ask myself,
Why am i still hanging on?
To a life that just repeats,
People want to help,
...
Is it wrong?
I can't be this honested,
It either "you still want to live" bs
Or you playing mind games,
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What is the point?
I don't even know anymore,
The clouds are dark,
But there never rain,
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There are no words to explain,
All i left was pain and hurt,
I could not fight the trauma,
It gotten the best of me,
...
Do you know what you are doing?
Inside i die a bit,
Hard to breathe,
Im feeling trapped,
...
I wish i could fade away,
Lay in the ocean and escape,
I wish just like the waves,
I'll become part of the sea,
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Do i reach out or do i keep quiet?
I'm tired of the stares and misunderstanding,
I comes to terms that my life won't get better,
Not because i don't want it to,
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*** Can't Wait Another Moment***
Nothing i do is right,
No matter what i say,
You say im not truthful,
Who are you to judge?
You supposed to help me,
Yet i feel judged,
I thought you was there to help,
You making my life harder,
Im bearly hanging on,
I keep counting down the days,
I dont have to be here anymore,
I pray god can just take me away in my sleep,
But i wake up disappointed,
What am i waiting for?
A voice cries in my head,
I no longer feel alone,
For once i feel my decision is right,
It just an endless battle with time.