***im Not Just Trying, I Will Succeed*** Poem by Monicalife Martinez

Why am i trying?
So tired of trying.
I remember where suicide attempts,
Was a game of roulette,
Every attempt got closer and closer,
You feel you breath get slower,
Hoping it will be your last,
Lying on the floor helplessly,
Waiting for it all to end,
Than reality sets in,
Why are you a coward?
Why did you stop taking the whole bottle?
Second questing?
Why?
Left to get help or to sleep it off,
Why didn't you try harder?
Mad at self for not following through,
Left with hate,
Why didn't it go as planned?
What did i do wrong?
Must i try harder?
To escape this pain i want to leave behind,
There is no...
Well, maybe you don't want to die.
I will succeed.