I Will Fight For My Passion Till My Last Breath Poem by Dipankar Sadhukhan

Life seems to be nothing but hell to me
As I have been suffering from
A prolonged disease for about one year.
It seems as if I'm between life and death.

So many doctors checked me up.
Some of them said, 'It is Stomatitis.'
Some opined, 'It is Mouth Ulcer.'
Some failed to diagnose my disease.

I also searched on different sites
By typing the symptoms of my ailments
Only to know the name of the disease
From which I've been suffering for a year.

I find that there are white and red lesions
Inside both of my cheeks and on my tongue.
I am very very punctual in having medicines.
Not a single dose has been missed so far.

Two doctors treated me wrongly initially.
Then an MD on Medicine advised me -
I should go to a dentist for my treatment.
I went to a reputed Govt. Hospital in my city.

One famous doctor checked me up
And prescribed few vitamin tablets
And a liquid mouth wash for me
And told me to go there after a month.

After a month I went to hospital.
I saw that the sores were almost gone.
The doctor checked up me for some time
And he was satisfied with the improvement.

The doctor prescribed vitamin A and C
And a mouth wash for two weeks
And asked me for scaling my teeth next time.
I appeared before the board of the doctors.

My teeth had been scaled for thirty minutes.
Then I was prescribed an ointment for two weeks.
I was happy as I thought I would be recovered soon.
After two weeks I stopped the prescribed medicines.

After few days I saw the same white lesions
Inside my cheeks and on my tongue.
I was worried and then again I went to hospital.
The dentist took few minutes to examine me.

Then he prescribed blood tests for
TC, DC, ESR, HB, Sugar Test and Serum ANF.
The tests were done within a week.
I found nothing wrong with the reports.

With several white lesions inside my mouth
I went to the dentist surgeon of S.S.K.M..
The Head of the Deptt. prescribed
A tab. Levocetrizine and Oint. Triamcinolone.

I don't know what will happen with my destiny.
I only know that I am not at ease even for a second
And I should be cured from the disease like Stomatitis
Or Mouth Ulcer or Lichen Planus whatever may be.

The doctor advised me not to feel tensed,
Not to eat spicy foods, not to suffer from anxiety.
I don't know whether I will be recovered or not.
I don't know whether I will be able to write poetry at ease.

I know that I will fight for my love, for my poetry.
I will fight inside and outside like a great warrior
Even if the whole world turns its face from me.
Like Keats I'll fight for my passion till my last breath.

By Dipankar Sadhukhan
Kolkata, India.
Copyrights@January24,2017(5: 30pm) .