I Wonder Why Poem by Kimberly Lindsey

I wonder “why, ” About so many things.
Why would one cheat, on someone they profess to love?
Why would one intentionally, say the most hurtful things, they can think of?
Why would one purposefully take, their loves self esteem?
Why would one destroy the love you have for them?
Why would anyone tolerate any of this?
Oh, but wait… there is more.
Why would I defend you, when I knew you were wrong?
Why would I let you hurt me? For six years this went on.
Why would I be your door mat? When there was someone else who loves me?
Why would I continue, down this broken, hurtful, path?
And why when I finally leave you, must you make my life a mess?
I wonder why it took so long, to see the real you?
And why on earth, was I so blind, afraid, and that is the truth.
But wait, what happened to that girl, the girl I used to be?
Where did my strength go, when I tried to fight you?
Why did she just fold and let you win?
Why did she not tell you where to go, and walk right out the door?
Why did I love you, when you were just a player, of life, love and friend?
And finally, how did I find the will, to leave you that day?
And every time you tried to draw me back in?
You almost, had your way.
But… you lost. You lost me, and I never will return.
The damage you caused, is trying to heal, I am gone… moved on.
I wonder if you miss, the girl you made of me.
I wonder if you miss my love, and all that I had to give?
I wonder if you realize, how destroyed I was with you?
I wonder if you care at all, that you lost what could have been.
I wonder if you ever, look at your life, and are appalled.
I miss some things, I will not deny, but the pain, cheating, and lies
Your half hearted tries to hide the truth, your abusive ways….
No none of those things do I ever miss,
And the things that I do were just a myth.
So no, I do not miss that life, it was not what I thought.
Turns out, it was just one… big… lie…