Id Rather Be Wear I Want To Be Poem by Jalynn Farmer

I can never explain
The reasons for my pain
There arn't words to describe
The way i feel inside

Its not something i can shake away
Its like i'm programed that way
I hold all my secrets inside
Never reveiling all that i hide

And its not that i'm afraid to let go
Or that my pain is starting to grow
I'm just so lost and confused
My self esteem is all but used

I need to face my past
So that i'll understand everything that has passed
Like, why my life is such a mess
And all the reasons for my stress

Its something i know i have to do
Even tho i may never make it threw
But I'd rather move on and be free
Then never being were i want to be