If I Had A Dream Poem by Claudia Krizay

I have so often been told to live for today while
The pain of yesterday still haunts me-
Tomorrow seems to be as I shall be fearfully jumping into
A lake of freezing water and perhaps even drowning
While trying to adjust to the cold, never abating?
Today I am looking through a tunnel and truly not seeing what awaits me-
If I had a dream to live for it would be
To find my heaven in this world, where
I would be set free from the fear of being threatened and
Trees would flourish and give me shade from the sun-
So many worship the sun and live for the sunrise, the warmth and
Sunny days are everyone’s heaven and glory-
For me the sun shines light upon the demons that threaten me, as it
Brightens up a world I would rather not see-
To find peace at the end of the tunnel I walk through continuously
Would be my utmost desire-
I do not fear darkness that so many apprehend, as when clouds pass over the sun
I can hide from all that is real, and feel the coolness of a gentle breeze,
Though just for one precious moment?
Daffodils are growing, crickets are singing and birds are chanting-
Children are laughing and creeks are rushing over polished stones-
It is the spring of the year and the world indeed is a magical place,
But somehow I am a lost spirit that somehow has never belonged?
If only I could live for today and blissfully dance beneath the sunlight,
If I had a dream it would be to find my heaven-
If I had a wish it would be to fall in love with the splendor of this place
Where seemingly everyone’s heart and soul are singing and
Everybody is giving thanks just to be alive?
I have been estranged from this world for so long, and
I am trying to believe that I can dream and I can wish-
Dreams often come true for everyone and I have had so many dreams and
Perhaps my dreams shall someday come true? As roses blossom and
Trees are always growing- yesterday’s fallen trees become fertile soil-
I am beginning to believe that the light at the end of my tunnel shall
Shine upon me in a different sort of way from how I once believed,
And not shine upon the demons that I have at times believed have troubled me-
Those demons shall have lost themselves and
Will have been left behind in the darkness of yesterday,
And I shall be outside worshipping the sun that has brightened up my world-
That would be my heaven found- most certainly a dream come true…