Into Disaster Poem by Laura arwen

My disaster is
to not live
in my own
house with my
own obsessions
I promise to
myself to change
but the old
habits are very
strong
It's time for
me to be
healthy because I'm
too lazy in
that sense
I'm not sporty
but I really
need the walks
I have a
lot of negative
emotions inside me
I don't care
if I live
in loneliness
Sometimes I suffer
for my loneliness
Sometimes I think
my family used
me for its
purpose
I'm tired to
live in the
uncertainties
I must be
focused on what
I have to
do
I need to
empty my mind
from every thoughts
I feel really
bad with all
the chaos in
my mind
Sometimes I dream
to be rich
so I can
easily donate many
things