I am smoldering
In some invisible fire
I am scratching at my clothes
Trying to tear through my chest
To find something that is buried beneath;
Some pretty words in my heart
That I cannot think up with my mind
With cold sweats in burning rooms;
Gagging and oxygen draining
I make myself ill
Searching for some relief
That never comes; ever
Even with all these pills
and all this sleeping
I am unhappy with myself
With my intense desire to be perfect
To be original
I am searching for something
That is unobtainable
I am addicted to someone
Who I have never seen
I am not worthy enough
To look upon his face
I am smoldering
In his invisible fire
And he will never save me
He will never love me
And I can never change myself
Into someone he will
This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.
I would like to translate this poem
Losing you r a good poet