It Was Just An Idea; I Guess I Wanted It Too Much… Poem by Luvo Mjayezi

No matter how hard you try, you can never prepare yourself for heartache
You look inside your soul and you see that drive for life,
Your heart gets excited,
And your brain starts to come up with a world of ideas.
From then forth everything just becomes a matter of the will, choices and the actions that follow.
When I think of you, I think of the moments of joy we had
Then I start to hurt.
I don't understand why you would choose to hurt me when you could just love me
Then everything from that thought just becomes a conundrum,
The dilemma that all my love and my good intensions could set out to hurt you
I write not to ridicule you or to hurt you
I am merely trying to express the deceptive truth of my heart
I am hurting I cannot lie and I won't pretend.
This is just another letter to the universe,
A petition from my spirit for God to help mend my broken heart.
When all my words are said and done, I'll have to wake up,
Dust off my heavy misery,
And carry on in the journey of discovering myself.
I hope you find what you are looking for
And that you will love yourself enough to risk your heart in your quest to find happiness.
May the decisions and actions that you take carry you to greater heights
Farewell my sweetheart…