Karma Loved Me Better Poem by Shilesha Johnson

I try my best to keep my head up
But whenever I fall I need a chest pump
It just hurts too much to even try
Takes everything in me now to break down and cry
I figure it's easier pushing people away
It's just easier not to get closer to anybody especially since nobody ever stays
It hurts way more than I show
And I know the pain has made me grow
And even though everything happens for a reason
I'm just so tired of my heart bleeding.
So tired of being the person everyone hurts
I want someone besides me who knows my worth
It sucks because karma freaked me better
The days when I was too immature to identify love cherish and treasure
I took it for granted
I was focused on other things so I couldn't really understand it
And now as I lay here in the dark at 5: 38 am (aye em)
I try my best to be strong, not cry and hold it all in