I know how to live in my fantasies
despite knowing the truth
When the bartender smiles and flirts
I smile back, because I know
He is pure illusion
that leads to no conclusion
When the male manicurist holds my hand
I can imagine us two in a fantasy land
but I know, oh I know, pay is all he'll demand
The trouble begins
when I know, and yet
I still want the fantasy to be real
The trouble begins
the disappointment begins
and cracks on the surface of my heart begin
Only surface deep because
I know how to live in my fantasies
despite knowing the truth
The heart is a lonely hunter, a line from a popular song, seems apropros here.
Different situations and its effects of love or attraction in the poem and likes it.
This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.
I would like to translate this poem
The way the opening stanza dovetails in the closing stanza is particularly moving - and the emotion it conveys is quite ambiguous. It's definitely a mixed emotion, which probably stems from the fact that there is no closure or end of these experiences of the real world and the fantasy world. Wouldn't we go crazy with grief it we couldn't fantasize? I like the way you made the fantasies occur in very concrete situations. And you show how the critical mind is at work at the same time the fantasy mind is creating its dreams. That shows the complexity of our INTERIOR LIVES. And INTERIORITY is one of the glories of our existence but it also leads to disappointment over our failed desires. I wish I didn't have to include that last sentence! But it fits with the candor of your poem.