Last Desire Poem by Vinaya Joseph

O, death!
Please take my breath away…

I seek the peace of your solitude,
Give me freedom,
From the vagaries of life…

I am tired,
Let my body and soul rest eternally…

I tried to please life,
But in the end, I failed…

I want to free myself,
From the pangs of sorrow,
That comes with every morrow…

I severed my ties with life…
To sail with you…

Let me also share,
That I bring with me nothing,
In this union
I am your bride without a dower…

I prayed umpteen times to God,
For peace…
But in vain,
He chose to remain silent…
My silent God!
After all I was praying to a wooden cross…
A wooden God!

May be he wanted me to be strong,
Find answers on my own,
From within, who knows?

I wonder whether my prayer was lost
Among the millions who sought his benevolence

I wonder if he ever heard my prayers,
Or may be he did,
And you were the answer to my heart’s appeal


I realized that
this world is a market,
People look for gains and profits,
In every little thing,
We are part of a bigger game plan...
Everything here is on sale,
Everything here is up for grabs,
Everything is an adjustment
And, I find no pleasure in this play
I am not up for sale…
I don’t want to be in this bloody business of life…

O death!
Hold me secure in your arms,
Let me rest my head on your shoulder…
I want to erase,
The imprints of pain that my heart bore…


But before I fade away in time,
I would like to thank the almighty for the gifts of life
Alas! I have no more space to keep them

In this final journey of love,
I want to become one with you,
Let there be no barriers,
I want to forget myself in your care,
As my spirit belongs to you,

Lying close to you,
Yearn for nothingness,
Only desire is to feel light,
With no more burdens of life,
Come whisper slowly into my ears,
And I long to hear your sighs and murmurs
High time that you cast your shadow on my life…