Leaving Poem by Vanessa Kingsley

All the same rules change
Everyone’s the same
Under cruel bright lights
I’m quieted
Forced to go on
I’m ready for them all to sleep
Head out in the middle of the night
Finally fly off and disappear
No one cared that much when I was here
Why should they, now that I’m gone?

Nothing will change
The same songs
The same holes
Fading into the cruel lights
Landing on the piano
Swallowing me in a ray of heat

Walking down the cold street
Summer could be here
And I wouldn’t feel the warmth
Little girl inside…
Don’t get lost
Though there’s nothing to follow
Nothing to hold onto
Keep on the path
Though it’s unable to be seen

I can hear you screaming
I feel you’re bleeding
We’re so close to being free
Under the shadows of the trees
It’s so hard to see
No matter, I need to get away
I need better days
I need to find someone new
Because I can’t hold onto you
I need to sing a new song
Because I’m tired of holding on
Ready to walk down this aisle
No bride
No groom
No smile
A dusty shadowed aisle

It’s time to go
Home
I think it’s time we show
Them that no matter what you say
I’ll still turn away
Because it’s all the same old tune

Little girl don’t get lost
I know the lights are bright
And it’s an unfamiliar song
Just somehow try and connect with me
Be careful that you don’t fuse with me
Slowly emerge
And fly like a bird
I think it’s time for us to leave
I think it’s time for them to see.