Lesson Learned? Poem by Melanie Walendowsky Baker

I have this ache
that won't go away.
It's also cuttingly sharp
and I fear it's here to stay.

Is it punishment, I wonder
for letting him see me?
Am I learning again
that I'm my own company?

For the very few times
I've allowed me to bare
I'm left aching and stinging
in rage and despair.

Have I learned my lesson,
now that it's clear?
To no one be vulnerable
and my soul no one to sear.

(Itajaí,12 May,2009)