Letter To My Ex-Lover Poem by Oluwaseyi Francis Adeosun

LETTER TO MY EX LOVER
To be honest, when we came to this decision back then,
I felt like the world had ended.
In truth, I was afraid of what
Life would look like without you.
I could not reconcile what was and what is,
With what ought to be.
Maybe it happened for a reason,
Maybe without that, I wouldn't have come this far.
Maybe I wouldn't have learnt the lessons you were meant to teach me.

Each time I realize we are no more,
And I remember how we started,
I get confused the more.
Many things flashes through my mind,
Often times I go sleepless and
Sometimes, losses appetite.
Who fooled who?
All those emotional words able to awake every
Slumbering nerves,
Where do they came from?
Were the feelings not genuine?

You told me you prayed about it,
Who lied?
You?
Your pastor?
Or was it me who misquoted you?
Even when I told you my past,
You promised never to be one.
Were you just saying them to force a smile on my face?
So you never even meant them?

Have you suddenly forgotten the days?
You got punished because you sneaked out,
Just to see your "love"?
Didn't I tell you my experiences too?
That night under the mango tree,
Under the guide of the moon, has the memory faded off?

Each time I see our old school mates,
Who back then were jealous of us,
They ask of you and I will be like,
ehm.....ehm....ehm....'she dey'
Do they ask of me too?
If yes, what do you tell them?

I never knew why you left until today.
I would have been good with you,
But now I am better.
Life with you would have been sweet,
But now it is sweeter.
I would have been strong with you,
But now, I am stronger.

Even though you hurt me on purpose,
Reminding me of things I never had.
And things others boast of.
You knew everything about me.
You knew I love you.
You were everything I dreamt of.
Well, it's over now and I think I can move on.
I now have my heart back.

I am writing you this letter because I forgive you.
And I'm truly happy that you‘ve found someone else,
Who will "take you out" (lolz)

You might not know this, I am truly thankful
After all this times, I no longer ask why
Because I now know why.
Sure, there were times I was furious you hurt me but
I'm smarter than that. I know if I hold a grudge,
I will give you the power to take much from me.
I now know if I didn't forgive you and move on,
I might never allow someone else in.
As much as you hurt me, made me feel insignificant,
I still hope someone will come along who won't make me feel that way.

I have some good memories with you,
And I chose to remember you that way.
I have found that yes, the good times,
Do outweighs the bad, but forgiveness,
Outweighs pain, and I no longer feel a thing.
Take care...

ADEOSUN OLUWASEYIFUNMI FRANCIS "FRANCOFONE"
07/02/2017.