Liars Love [140th Poem] Poem by Dakota Ellerton

For you I've come undone.
My insecurites are unravling in front of you,
you see my bare soul.
Every inch of my body kissed by you,
your hands on mine,
as mine are on yours.
You give the sweetest kisses.
You gave the last kiss.
The last I shall ever recieve.
No, that's not true.
You were second last.
How upsetting.
My hearts preperations are twisted,
what kind of goodbye did I just leave you with.
I've tried, again and again.
Goodbye, is the toughest word,
though I thought I'd never have to say it to you.
Never would I have imagined this happening,
life is as sick as I.
I sufficate over my thoughts at night,
wake up gasping for air.
I dream of the cruelest things,
the harshest of realities.
It's so hard to breathe now.
My stomachs turning, I'm about to vomit.
In tears, I will lay here and think of this.
I will contemplate my last words to you.
Father, did you believe I'd be somebody important?
I never have.
What drive do I have?
If I have one at all.
I'd fight for one more,
Just one more night to set things in order.
What goodbye can I leave you with,
what sad whispers can I drip in your ear?
What questions do I yet to hear an answer to?
Really, there isn't much left to say.
So can we not just lay here awhile,
like we used to, I will lay here in the dark.
If I were to give up,
would you fight to live?
If anyone knows me it'd be the memory of you.
That you, not this one.
Losing the life my mother labored for me,
the life that wasn't meant to be,
isn't a lose at all.
I'd lay my life down for the ones I love,
the ones I yet to love.
Such a goodbye could not be created for you,
I will simply leave it,
with an I love you.