Live To Die Poem by Joshua Hillard

I wake up every morning,
Nightmares screaming from the night before,
A petrified thought rests in my soul,
What if these nightmares happen more and more?

I can only ask if they'll ever come true,
For which my heart prays to a no,
Because of what my mind dreamt of last night,
My eyes continue to cry real slow,

This pain in my thoughts drive me insane,
It causes me to want to walk away from what is life,
Because what if this vision I had becomes reality?
How will I ever persist if I became right?

My visions prolonged my belief of existence,
How can we live when we know we will die?
Not only by natural, but by our own selves,
So I pray to God and only ask why,

Why do we have a heart that destroys us impeccably?
Why do you create emotions if it only creates pain?
These abysmal thoughts begin draining my blood,
But every answer I find continues to be the same,

We live only to die,
But why must that become true?
What is the purpose of our existence,
Knowing one day I'll fade; and even you,

One dream that showed a suicide,
But it was so short I could never find the reason why,
I woke up screaming, praying for it to never happen,
But one day it will; one day...we all will die.

...We live...To die...