Living With The Enemy Poem by Hannah Davies

There is no excuse for mum's behaviour
She was the one who blew every chance I gave her.
She acted in a cruel way
And all because my Dad didn't stay.

Maybe she took things out on me because I was his?
Because I reminded her of things she'd miss.
She was unable to stand up to others
It was easier for her to take it out on me and my brothers.

She couldn't accept that he had left her
She said it was becuase of us kids, that we all had to suffer.
She didn't show any anger towards Dad
Instead she focused on making me feel sad.

She would tell everyone of her kids 'so-called' bad points
That we were out of control adn smoking joints.
How it was a struggle to be a single mum
That's why she felt down and sat around all day on her far, lazy bum.

She was the adult who always knew 'best'
Constantly belittled me, she would never rest.
Whether it be sexual or emotional torture
She made it clear, how she didn't want a daughter.

She would find any little excuse to have a dig
Blamed everything on me, the stupid, fat pig.
She didn't care when I was ill
Putting herself first, still.

She stood by Paul
And ignored my pleading call.
According to her, I deserved everything I got
And to everyone else she denies the whole lot.

Could she have a personality disorder?
Or am I just trying to find excuses for her?
I honestly believe she must be mentally unwell
But she hides it so well, so that others can't tell.

She made me believe that I was going insane
She was the one who cause all this pain.
She is the one with the crazy illusions
She has created so much confusion.

Only when I left that house could I truly see
That it wasn't right, the way she treated me.
All those years the truth I had to hide
Is it any wonder why my brain feel fried?

I am not to blame
And shouldn't feel any shame.
She was the adult who was in the wrong
I was the child who had no choice but to go along.

Well, I don't have to put up with it anymore
She will get what's coming to her, that's for sure.
I will no longer protect
I'm here to remind her that I will never forget!