Losing You Poem by Raiyan Asaral

So then I took my leave.
Into the abyss I flew blindly.
Far, gone nowhere.
Fallen into the deepest pit,
That human imagination is ever achieved.
Wherever I look, all was but nothingness.
When I move an arrow flies piercing my heart.
When I wonder where was I,
There was nothing that reminds me.
All is dark and creepy.
Bloods continue to flow like a river,
Pain is seeping my sanity away,
Endlessly, as it goes on.
As every second I curse life,
Wanting to empty my soul!

It's the simplest description of what is inside this burning heart.
A volcano that erupts without stop.
All I could do is endure.
I couldn't yelp.
No I can't cry.
It was not like before where I can show my weakness,
Expose my vulnerability,
And admit that everything is going nowhere.
The fact that I yearn for you,
And you on the other hand despises me,
Is a reason why I can't cry.
I can't shed my own tears.
Trying to be strong in front of everyone,
In front of you.

It's unexplainable.
This feeling, the emotion,
The sorrow that shrouds me.
I know you're there yet I can't be with you.
I am envious,
I'm jealous of the thought that I am not the one who you share your laughter,
Who you ran into when you need a shoulder to lean on,
A hand to caress your hair,
The thought that you don't want me to care for you anymore.
It's excruciating. It's hard to bear.
Every moment that passes away,
Is a treasure lost into wilderness.
A piece that I know will never be mine again.
Like a flower that withers as the sun refuses to give light.
As nature denies it waters, and let it die in pain.