Love. Poem by Kenji McCollum

I love being loved,
but I hate it if it doesn't fit under certain categories,
it'll make me squirm and feel uncomfortable,
and I'll too easily fall in love with the wrong people,
trust the wrong ones with my heart,
that why my heart has so many bandages,
why its so bruised and looked like its going to burst,
from any heavy emotion,
or just,
emotions,
i hate being in love with someone,
because when i love someone i cant control it,
and i hate being out of control,
because i am quite literally powerless,
and i mostly hate it because i find myself in the worst of situations,
and that usually means i am not able to freely love the person,
or i am not able to let myself,
why does my love have to be like this?
why does it have to be so sad and complicated?
why do i always have to love them so much?
I feel I'm terrible person for wishing the 'obstacles',
would just vanish.
Because only then I would be able to love freely.