Me Poem by Bailey Staggs

Sometimes, she lies awake, with life on her mind
Never knowing day to day, what lies ahead, what she might find
Some days she's happy, some days depressed
Some days she wonders, is it worth it to finish the rest
Sometimes, she asks herself, does she regret it all
As she tries to answer the question, "How did I fall? "
Sometimes she feels like throwing it all in
Because she cannot figure out how start over again
She lays alone, walls begin to build
So much anger and hatred, with which her heart has been filled.
Those whom she's loved, have all walked away
One by one, more and more each day
All she's ever wanted, was someone to love her
Her husband, her best friend, even her mother.
Her mother allowed abuse, for her innocence to be taken away
All for money her mother would receive some day
Her husband made her promises, with no intent to keep
Never caring that the pain he cause, would ever hurt her so deep
Her best friend took her marriage, stating, "Who cares! "
No one really understands, the amount of pain she bears.
When she needed them most, her family turned their back
Getting to know people is difficult, when trust is something you lack.
People don't really see, they think she will be fine
If they got deep in her head, maybe they'd see, she really isn't fine
Sometimes, from true love, she feels she is banned
Because she feels, no matter how tight, they will let go of her hand.
They all say she's beautiful, gorgeous and pretty
But all her imperfections, is all she can ever see
They think she's strong because with courage she will always fight
Even when it takes all she has, holding her agony in, with all her might.
So now it all rests in a black little hole
Quietly shoved way down deep inside her dark, hardened soul
Covering all the scars that have made her so strong
Living this life, with everyday, that seems to be so long
That what she knows her world wants to see
They've never given her the chance to just be "me".