Memory....(Sad) Poem by Poet of the River

Every night I lay awake soundless in bed,
every night I fear to close my eyes.
I worry if I do, I may see your memory dancing in my head,
and my neighbors to hear my sorrowful longing cries.
Every night brings me nothing but expected dread.
I am mad at how my dreams lie!
I close my eyes and dream of you,
Your hands in mine as we gaze into each others eyes.
But then I wake up and I do not know what to do.
Why did you have to go?
Why couldn't you hold on longer?
I had to see the light slowly fade...
I wish my will was stronger,
For I wish to be with you,
And maybe, I soon will.