Missed Lesson Poem by victoria martinez

And we play the parts
Bits of broken hearts
Always trying to get ahead
Forgetting the tears we’ve shed
It’s a struggle; trying to be the best
Push everyone away; but, never confess
We lose trust
And when we look our eyes they lust
Tried to live with my past in future together
Lost all my hope … a loss of forever
Giving into such tired thoughts
Hopes of being all that I’ve got
I play my role
Dig my hole
Burry myself deep
I am one who IS weak
What a life
It all falls apart
Now I sit here…
This is what I found
I can’t be right…
I seem to just be wrong
I can’t feel pain
My body isn’t strong
I walk alone
It’s been this way all along
I have no fears
I just have shame
Regrets eat me
But I’m the one to blame
I have no reason for life
I just feel purpose is a good thing to look for
Most of the time I find my body feels good when lying on the floor
I’ve had my ups…
But most of the time I’m down
The only thing I hope for is that I don’t ever drown
I swear I’m nice
I just don’t know how to show it.
I swear I know how to love
It’s just hard to prove it
I am young so people look away
I have insane thoughts so people push me away
I’m smarter than most adults
They skipped a lesson in life
It’s called self doubt…