Mother How Could You? Poem by Emma Jane Rae

you make me feel like my life is a lie,
you make me want to curl up and die,
how can a mother make me feel this way?
and say it's my fault coz i followed her that day!
the sneaking and lying you messed with my head,
it feels like torture, my souls full of dread,
how could you do it?
rip our family apart?
did you not realise you'd crush all of our hearts?
a mothers suppose to be there through thick and through thin
i wouldnt even cuddle you dont know where youve been,
i had my doubts but you said i was wrong,
i wonder how long it's really been goin on,
when i was little i used to lay in my bed,
get nasty thoughts race through my head,
like what would i do if i didnt have you?
and now i dont and it's so hard to cope,
the tunnels getting darker fading my last hope,
i hoped you'd realise you'd made a mistake,
but after this long, i think its too late,
i wish you could but you cant turn back time,
where life was great and everyone was fine,
you began to change and say hurtful stuff,
you alterd your ways stopped making me laugh,
your suppose to make me happy not make me sad,
im just grateful i still got dad!
you called me spiteful and a selfish witch
you accused me of spying, you called me a snitch,
not only were you my mother, but you were my bestfriend!
you should have told that creep 'NO',
instead of making our family come to an end!
my heartbeat is racing and my pulse is gettin quick,
i cant get you off my mind- i just feel so sick!
i wish you could take back all this hurt you've caused,
i wish you would just stop and think take a small pause!
but it cant be changed, the damage is done,
i've just got to get on with my life with no bestfriend or mum!