My Double Life Poem by K J

For years I could adapt
To everything people expected
to everything I'm not
Even now I try hard to be
just as average as them

Something happened
Just a simple click in my brain
How long must this go on?
I went looking for my true self
Never closing my eyes for the truth inside

I am complicated
a mixture of darkness and light
Torn between my own passion
and the needs of everyday life
Still drawn to my own fantasies

I calm my restless mind
It's okay, just close your eyes..
At night, I am entitled to go
wherever my fantasy takes me
and warms the coldness in my heart

When I wake up again
I am stronger and filled with joy
Prepared to take on anything
the world needs me to
Life's good again

People say I have changed
They don't like my looks
Think I'm too distant
Too much of everything
I just smile at them

That's just me