My Final Step Poem by spencer tye

Like the sweet roll of thunder,
I can feel my heart beat.
Listen to it die,
as I take this final leap.
Into what I was told,
is something without you.
Where I can no longer hold,
your hand when I want to.
You know what you did really hurt me a lot,
and I wish things were different
from this life I just got.
If you want me to make it through this thing still alive,
I have to push away,
if I want to survive.
But in all honesty,
there's still something I need.
Just this one thing explaining why that this heart still bleeds.
I said that I would die for you,
you know that its true.
And that I would never hurt you,
no matter what you'd do.
And you said the same,
and promised the same.
Reassuring me more,
just by saying my name.
So now that its all said and done,
where is your love lying?
Strewn out and dying,
like you know that mine is?
Or living anew in someone else,
the same man that I once approved.
But I gotta tell you,
I was right all along.
And the way you went through it was incredibly wrong.
But your happy with him,
he seems really sweet.
I'm happy for you,
you have something you need.
But the way you lied,
and told me to stay.
Saying nothing was wrong,
and that you don't betray.
With your actions I should really just say
give me the gun, or blow me away.
Because an end this horrid can not be better,
than the quick flash from the end of a barrel.
I'm fortunate there are still more people I have left to live and die for,
before I can leave this mortal coil behind.
And in the process I may just find
something to keep,
and to change my mind.
out of keeping my promises and dying for you,
because when I said I loved you,
you said that you loved me too.
But as that's not true and there is someone else now,
I have to say that I shouldn't have tried,
to keep you away,
just with me to stay,
but your his girl now,
i guess you were never really mine.
It's funny how through all this love and hate,
my love for you is still so great.
but I know you don't love me now,
not like before.
But you're happy now,
so there is nothing I would want more.
than for you to be with him,
because he is giving you something that I couldn't.
And I have made my final step to ensure that I wouldn't,
die for you.