My Misery Poem by Eman Awad

Trying to find a sound,
louder than the beats of my heart.
Searching for a solid ground,
will i ever refrain to a new start? ?
I'm so in love with you,
but what would i do after goodbye?
I'm giving up on what's true,
but it's wrong no matter how i deny.
I imagine losing that smile,
just because it was never meant for me.
Losing you for a while,
and dying through, till you return to me.
While i know you won't do,
because i'm the one to leave.
Giving all of my pain to you,
happy endings that i refused to believe.
Will we end happily,
and when will we just end? ?
This love isn't for me,
so why would i pretend? ?
Still my heart beats as always,
for your smiles are the life for me.
Without you, sad are my days,
i won't live for any thing but my misery.