My Nearly Suicide Poem by Makayla Straight

They say when one dies
Another comes
Its all about the timing
Well I tried to end my time
I tried to get another life to come
Patience is not a fan of mine
Nor am I a fan of patience
I suppose it was not my time
For I am still alive and strong
Why?
Only him above knows why
The moment of weakness
Is the moment the baby should of came
Instead I am here writing this poem
If it was not my time
When is my time
When shall that mother give labor
To a newborn that takes my place on Earth


Now that I have lived through this experience
I have to share
Share what I have learned
Running awau is going to get you no where
Why?
Again only him above knows why
If you run
What are you doing?
Or where are you going?
Your making the problem bigger than it really is
Making your end soon is not a solution
It may seem like it
However it is just a problem
A problem of life
We have to show we are strong
Stronger than death
Instead of hoping that baby is near
We should hope
The baby has not even been made yet
Life is too short
It may seem long
And even painful
But all we got to do
Is hold out our hand
And ask for help
Life is a precious gift
With all the special moments
Or even the hell
We need to stay strong
I know its hard
Believe me- I do
I had no one
But I know I do not want to die
Im not sorry for what I did
I do not regret it
However I wont do it again
This was a wake up call
Before the final goodbye
So now I relaize the baby will not come
And I will not go
Am I okay with that?
We shall see
But for now yes I am okay.