this place alone I feel the heat
that pumps my heart into a slow beat
for once I was a man in ray
that shone in hope a rightful way
once before I was forgotten lost
in a place of voids and twisted costs
I fell into a star eclipse
and as I knew I must subsist
this thread of life uncoiled my core
and thus the truth I began to bore
a snake that tunneled the core of my heart
and thus the way was paved in start
in this mood I felt I knew my state
and thus interdependence I began to relate
the mountain scenes and coastal beaches
were within my minds far away reaches
the green, the rocks, the moment I read
were my heart was flat out dead
broken into a million shattered glasses
I knew for once I knew the lashes
this crown of despair I had so dreaded
was a demon of lust that must be fedded
a wolf who hungers at a lambs slaughter
was were I came to my own fodder
the eye that see's this inward glance
and created in such a way and trance
I moved and mused to the universes stars
and felt the magma cool my scars
so when I was and was I am
I felt as though I was grande
to read about my life in scenes
was what was making my brain scheme
this scheme, a poem, a spell, a crime
that the fruit of poison insisted in time
debased this prophet of unwinding hell
into an existential particle hell
in this palce I entered twice
my atoms were cut up and were spliced
I thought I saw the pillars of peace
and thus I thought that I may release
the books to comprehend the muse of mind
were spelled out before me in the fiend
was the place I felt so entwined
the hell inside, the black hole bind
is were for once you see the line
this faded line that must not be crossed
along the event horizen of dead at all cost
so then in sleep awoken I was sublime
and I began to feel the soul of mine
this soul I searched began to infuse
itself with love so I may use
disorder upon the fold was set in play
and reason the order light years away
once perhaps I will tell you why
that the living dead is all inside
yet heaven above sends earthly guise
so rich in harmony to swell the lies
let me now sing to you
my mind is clear, refreshed, renewed
for this place alone I hold to fast
and this particle existence is my last
the breath of death is were it began
and I was infused with this land
I recite myself in lines that hope
you will live your life in ray of dope
so which upon this time I think
the universe is mine and linked
my thoughts estrange my fleeting groans
that will itself along the foam
the beating core my mind now seeks
is a refuge to the small and weak
this poem I know is mine to keep
and ponder as I think and sleep
let me recite how it all began
the love of Venus was to much to stand
I fell into a spell of depression
and felt as thought in commision
was to were I must take to sea
as the shores and coasts were apart of me
the waves kept rolling as my mind searched
for the answer to control its hurt
this pain I felt is like no other
except when Zeus diminished his own brother
I fell under the spell of nature
and a chemical change came to my rapture
and thus the green felt its place
consumed I was and rather dispalced
elegance I thought was a knight at bay
until this stooper diminished the way
the spell of nature so enacted
that I must be teleported and so reacted
to the breath of death upon my soul
and this is when consumed at whole
at once my mind percieved the world
the twists and twirls of what is curled
inside our brain, inside this mess
I began to ponder at best
the only reason I could relate
I must of visited hell on this date
so then one night at the lake
I gave my sould torwards the fates
and once the psell activated my mind
books and theories were so divine
the poems I wrote about this place
were rather infused with a holy face
so once upon the night of that
the formula came to my mind in fact
yet whose to say what is so true
am I delusional without a clue?
the thesis I wrote began to ensnare
all the universe at a glare
and though at once it felt so right
could my mind be confused at its own sight
as the years have passed I have now shown
that the winds of south have seldom blown
I can now see this guise of self
and I know infact its my own wealth
so now seated on this chair
I can tell you that I know whats fair
to be blinded by reason the selfless urge
that love inside may only purge
as you may see part of me
in this prose I know I'm free
to watch myself upon this land
and know for fact I only stand
upon my feet I know whats right
so must I test myself tonight?
so free, careless, controlled and willed
to avoid is to be all but stilled
as now for once my words align
and to the stars our wills will shine
divine in rhyme I feel the core
as this truth of mine is my own door
yet death knocking close inside
is why I must keep my confide
if I begain to tell my story
o the horors of life and glory
so as I write I write I know I must
give way to self and bestial lust
perhaps to you I am alone
this is what i make myself shone
the trips to magic lands and places
were dimensions and comprehension heals faces
inside our soul you will find a tree
that is what teams within so free
so fire your core let truth restore
a fatality of life you must abhor
begin anew with friends and past
for who knows which day may be your last
This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.
I would like to translate this poem