My Story Poem by Mohammad Younus

I was lost in a fearful dream;
l was but waking in the dream;
My heart was burning with fire;
My sleep ran away from my eyes;
I was restive and full with pain;
It was a horrible nightmare!
God had snatched my free will!
He had asked me to be His servant.

I got up from the bed with fear;
And sat on my hunches;
Quiet but frightful!
And was not saying anything;
But thinking about my service;
l started praying to God...
That l will tolerate this too;
Give me control over the Satan;
But He left it to me...
To fight out the Satan;
My free will was restored;
But it gave me more pain;
Since He gave me no power;
My free will was of no avail;
I could not resist the temptation;
I got a greater pain.

I repented to my God;
And asked for His forgiveness:
God consoled me;
He realised that it is so...
He had given me much pain;
He pitied my condition;
And then He cast a cool glance;
I became calm, quiet, and peaceful;
I did not now find any pain in heart;
That was the great blessing.

God created then Love in me;
To help me tolerate the pain...
...of service to Him;
He called me to His Presence...
...and was highly pleased with me;
He poured the light of knowledge
on my heart•••
and lit the lamp of enlightenment...
in my mind;
What a difficult test it was!

Now I know it pretty well...
what best life I must prefer;
I have have lived many lives...
While ignorant of my purpose;
I must be peaceful and contented...
from beginning to the very end;
Which of course,
Would be perfectly impossible...
If God were not on my side;
He has put me on the right tract;
So this is the one I would prefer...
over all the other lives.

MyKoul