Never Truly Free Poem by Shante Lamping

A sudden darkness creeps into my soul
the spining of the world is stedily speeding
i yell, only to not be heard
held down to the lowest point of humanity
i squirm and twist as much as i can
searching for a chance to be freed
my legs are forced open with such disregard
the tears that roll down my cheek go unnoticed.
i close my eyes as tight as physically possible
as i plead and beg for my safety,
i ask can you hear my prayers
i seek guidence through this pain
i can feel the blood streaming down my leg,
as they manipulate me
the torture continues so painful i cannot help but cry
the tears that roll down my cheek go unnoticed.
struck with reality in the form of a fist
i whisper to the lord in great distress
finally i am free
even though this horrific attack has run its-
course, it is not yet over
i wish for mental freedom, security
and physical replenishing
with every heart beat a reminder resurfaces
yet,
the tears that roll down my cheek go unnoticed.
for i cannot speak because i run out of words
my heart is crying out, only to be ignored
haunted by the memory of the past


finally, i see i will never be truly free.

05.04.09