Nothingness Poem by Emily James

I don't know what I'm doing anymore
I walk amongst the shadows.
I've lost all sense of self
the pathway around me narrows.
I feel closed in, I cannot breathe
where do I go from here?
Wandering aimlessly amidst the world
why is it all so unclear?
Help me please to regain myself
I've delved so far beneath.
I cry all night, I weep all day
barely speaking through clenched teeth.
I have no idea who I am
know not what I've become.
Alone in a corner I sit and dwell
quietly sucking my thumb.
It's time I feel to end it all
nowhere left to go.
So I'll pull the trigger gently now
just watch me blow, blow, blow.