Now I'M Feeling Poem by Casey Gochnour

I’m having trouble just going on,
My body’s here, but my mind’s gone.
I step forward to the hole in the ground,
Then move back to the spot I’m forever bound.

The path before me had been laid so clear,
With dreams made and promises so sincere.
I promise I’ll make it, I can get through,
But now I’m losing sight of what I can do.

Doubt in every movement, I can see it more and more,
I had everything I needed, everything I could ask for.
Now the world seems to be slipping out of my hands,
Being cut so thin from all of life’s strands.

Tears have built up and they’ve fallen out,
I can’t give up, I can’t just pout.
My plans have failed, a new one must come about,
I must find a new direction, I must find a new route.

I know now the error of my ways,
The future’s forever lost from my gaze.
I don’t know what to do, I don’t know what to say,
I’ve continuously lied to make me feel like it’s okay.

Now I’m feeling like there’s no way out,
Constant mistakes fill my head with doubt.
My bones crack as I proceed to bend,
I’ve finally done it, I’m at my wit’s end.