October 10,2015 Poem by Bunny Monster716

I feel heaviness in my chest
The crowded air won't let me rest
I feel like there are walls inside me
And they're closing up, and I can't breathe

I inhale a thought, a breath as deeply as I can
My lungs are giving up, they don't want to expand
Deeper and deeper I breathe, Hourglass lungs that fill with sand
I'm trying to remember when this feeling began

I see stars in my head
I look at them as I'm laying in bed
There's one for every lovely word you've said
Hands still on my chest, I let the tears shed

I've never felt such a weight in this place
Over my heart the pressure stays
Over my lungs as I listen to the noise I make
While breathing in to feel the air my lungs chase

I'm having trouble understanding
I can't decipher if this is real or am I imagining?
Is this a nightmare or could this be happening?
The anchor in my heart must be this pain I'm having

I can't specify exactly why,
I feel as if I'm dying inside
More rapidly my heart collides with the outside
How much longer will I be alive?

Maybe I'm over exaggerating with a timely demise
But my lungs feel as if they've shrunken in size
Maybe if I gaze upon the lights in the sky
The stars will help these feelings subside

I look up only to see a memory of you and me
And You're eyes shine brightly like our stars tonight,
As I breathe, it's more slowly, I feel like I'm floating
And I've left that anchor, that weight, below me
As I move toward you in my memory, I begin to feel as if I'm free

I want to stay in this moment of happiness forever
I don't feel so afraid when were together
I think I'll stay here where I'm finally able to sleep
The last breath I take, I breathe in deep
As I breathe out I let my pain seep, from the tears I weep

And as all light is fading I let go of everything, and I am complete.