Oh Papi My Daddy Poem by Moore Hope

I remember when I was just a little tyke
I would try to sleep but my eyes would not shut tight.
I would walk to you with arms up in the air
You would pick me up and cuddle me near
You would rock me gently as you sang a song
About a black bird who would sing all night long
Then you would sing about a monkey by the night of the moon
And before you would finish I was asleep just as soon
You would lay me back into my bed
And tuck me in with a kiss on the head

I was daddy's little girl and I knew that I always would be
You have been there for me through my life always.
You helped me to raise your first grandson
Since his dad walked out and left us with none
You made sure that all of our needs were met
And nothing in return did you expect.
You never once said anything bad
You took the days as that came and never got mad

You supported us as I went back to school
For I left my college behind to get married to that fool
But I went back to college and got my degree
Which made you happy and proud of me

And when I had to go to work so early in the morn
You would wake up early and take your grandson to school without even a scorn
You never complained and you were always concerned and you were always there
You would even call us if we did not check in and the night was coming near.

You loved your grandson and he loved you to
I consider him yours and mom's fifth child for I did not raise him, it was you
I tried to get my life back on track
And finally did and never looked back
The future to me was so bright and so clear
But then one day I got a call and an ever changing scare

Mom had called and all I could make out was accident and dad
I drove to your house so quick to a sight that was sad

The paramedics where there pumping down on your chest
For you had had a sudden cardiac arrest
I watched in horror as they tried to save you
I screamed at them for they did not know what to do
They shocked you once and then shocked you again
Finally your heart beat began to ascend.
They took you to a hospital; but not the one that they should
For the hospital they brought you to, did harm and no good.

At least in the emergency room you would open your eyes
But when they brought you to the unit you were silent to our surprise
You made no movement; you did no longer open you eyes
And everything that the doctor would tell us turned out to be lies.

So now you lay there in the hospital bed
You can open your eyes now, but no words are ever said.

I can see in your eyes that you are still there
I recognize the look, the concern of the stare.

I try to talk to you as I would normally do
I tell you about what is happening in my life and in your grandson's too.

I know you can hear me, for you sometimes turn your head
It is as if you are listening to every word that I said.

I do not believe the doctors that you will never wake up
I believe in my heart that in your body you are stuck

I think about you everyday
I miss your hugs and the piano you would play.

I miss you daddy all the time
I pray to God that you will be fine.
Maybe he could perform a miracle and you would awake
I would give up my soul for this miracle to take

For you are the one who made our family so strong
But now that you are not here, everything has gone wrong.
My brothers and sister no longer come each Sunday
They stay at their homes, they are pulling away
I know that if you were still here they would come
And our family would be together again as one.

So please God if you read this I ask and I pray
For my daddy to get well and come back home to us today!