Only Human In The Light Poem by Kevin Patrick

You are everything I want in neat little package of unquestionable desire…, and everything I am compelled to be repelled for - Love, Sex, Lust Greed, the avarices of the guilty and the human.

On one hand I want to feel your body pulsating vibrantly against me as if you are a completion of unity that I have always wanted to know as the forbidden fruit and synergy of two united beings in mind… spirit… and most of all…… flesh

But then the other hand turns and it hits the nerve like acid rain, and you make me disgusted!

To want you, is an aberration of what I am, to think that I would allow another human being to suck this power out of me! And pierce the heavy armor I have wool myself in to protect myself against the lecherous claws of inhibitions of human skin. I hate, that I'm compelled by animal forces to blind me by the laws of natural selection which never feel natural to myself

Sometimes it feels like it would be easy to kill a billion, and hit a vein to tap the blood like sap from a tree. It feels so pure to always want to hate and destroy and burn, then it is to want to feel the touch of lips for the sake… of a kiss…

Because when I look at you there are two sides of my mind, one is the human compassionate element found in the thirst for love or the closest proximity of love in passion, in those moments I feel like you heal me with your body. That's the human side

The other is pure reptilian and malevolent who sees all forms of intimacy as a threat, and you are a threat to my stability and my integrity, you damage to my bodies equilibrium and most stable reasoning and I want to hide away into the bottom of an endless keep hoping to forget your face which has trapped me in amber with your angelic face of pure sin.

I wish I could have the things that come so easily to others, but the thing of it is… I'm only human in the light.