Private Party Poem by Laura arwen

I have a
clear thoughts of
party: writing, reading,
sleeping and sex
At this party
I'm alone because
no one enjoys
me
I don't belong
to the social
parties
It is for
personal well-being
It could end
in a terrible
way
For me it
is a strange
and abstract concept
I can't explain
how I feel
with the party
because it is
a deviation from
the main targets
I know it
is illicit and
uncommon
Every party is
different
Sometimes I'm immune
to the parties
In some party
there are strong
battles
For me it's
a big challenge
to participate to
a party
Modern parties are
continuous demonstration of
excess and success
Rarely I find
comfort in the
party
I feel sad
and strange in
the modern parties