Promised By Death Poem by K J

There is always someone that hurts you everyday
Maybe not physically, but mentally
A tragic death that creeps in and out
Reminding how much the person wanted to escape

No need to rhyme when I have the poem inside me
Lifting above the surface, then falling without care
A ghost breathing in time with me
Leaving the ache inside more empty than before

What defines the lines of my sadness?
What makes the feeling of wanting to fade?
I still have yet to learn how to break away from everything
Because the steps are taken harshly as they walk all over me

The way you hurt me a million times over
Crushes my heart, making me crash down once again
Nights of crying for you, but you never once heard me
The least you could do is grant me the happiness you stole

You ripped out the emotion of love I long for
Knowing that I would never get a chance to feel
Lost in my own mind, and often confused
Making me want to scratch out my eyes

Shadows fill my nightmares, and there is no one to keep me safe
No one to hold me as I shake, screaming in my mind
I don't understand what made you leave all of who you loved behind
The pain seeping still through the bleeding pores

I ended up losing control of myself
Blaming and critizing, thinking I was not wanted
But you are the one to blame, and the one's who call themselves friends
I have you to thank for killing a part of me

Just let me fantasize some more, let my imagination stay vivid and wild
Keeping everything I believe hushed away
Tell me, did your selfishness get you where you wanted to go?
Because the day you decided to invite death in, was the day you promised me an eternity of rage and hurt