Reality Poem by Hannah Davies

The more I show
The less people want to know.
Too much to comprehend
It's easier to pretend.

So numb inside
With no where to hide.
I'm not sure what to think
I just let out a smile and wink.

Fighting with the voices
Trying to make the right choices.
Trying not to look back
And staying on track.

Releasing all the hate
Before it's too late.
Collecting the tears
And setting free the fears.

No turning round
Keep myself firmly on the ground.
It's a lot easier said then done
But feeling how I do, isn't much fun.

Depression in my face
Comes and goes without a trace.
Don't want to provoke
This is far from being a joke.

At night my pillow becomes wetter
But everyone around thinks I'm better.
Don't want to let them down
Have to stay strong and mask the frown.

Told to forget it all
But these problems aren't trivial or small.
They are a part of me
That people find difficult to see.

They weren't there
And can't really compare.
They can't understand fully
They weren't tortured by the bully.

I know they are trying
To comfort if they do see me crying.
They are not sure what the right thing is to say
But I am grateful they have continued to stay.

I know for them it's just as hard
It's not like it can be fixed with a get well card.
But to know that someone's there
Keeps me back from the edge of despair.