Reason Poem by Josh Burnett

I'd give anything just to be able to make it up to you.
I know I won't ever feel fine until my heart stops hurting.
It's making me sick sitting here waiting to hear from you.
But there's nothing I can really do except sit here feeling lonely and blue.
I hope within everything that I am I didn't blow it for us.
Is there even a point in trying to look my best when you don't even look at me.
And i just wished I had one more chance to tell you how much you mean.
Then maybe I wouldn't have to make you leave.
That's never what I meant to do to you in the first place.
All I ever wanted to do was be able to see your pretty face.
Now I know I will never be saved by the grace.
And it's hitting the side of my head like a giant mace,
But I've got all the time to wait, but maybe it's too late.

And I wake up from a dream about you.
And I realize that you are not there by my side.
It makes me restless the rest of the night.
And I close my eyes but all I do is cry.
Because I now know that you'll never be mine.
And I now have no reason to put up the fight.

You were my right to all my wrong, my sunlight to all of my dark.
I hope I hear from you to tell me that you still are.
It's one in the morning and I'm still by the phone waiting for you to call.
Although I already know that you won't at all.
I never knew that we would fall like this away from each other.
Seventeen days was way too long for me to wait,
But I waited hoping that I would see your pretty face.
I didn't know when the time came I was going to disappoint you like I did.
And I just want you to tell it to my face if you never want to see me again.
In time I will deal with all the pain so it might be better if I walk away.
I should have known that it was going to hurt the same way it did last time.
Don't you worry I understand, I guess I deserve to be hurt like this.

And I wake up from a dream about you.
And realize that you are not by my side.
It makes me restless the rest of the night.
And I close my eyes but all I can do is cry.
Because I now know that you'll never be mine.
And now I have no reason to put up the fight.