Ruined Poem by Heather Z. Hanna

I've ruined it all.
I could have had so much more
But could not keep my mouth
Quiet, for the noise in my head
Would not stop.
Each time I spoke
Made it that much harder
To explain
That really I'm not to blame
For I traveled uncharted waters
And fear crept upon my shoulders
Whispering lies and worries
Urging me to act
In unseemly manner
When truly my inner self
Was really just confused
About how to be
And what to do
In unfamiliar seas,
Having never sailed here before.
So I cast my words
Upon the waves
Over and over again
Only to see them wash away
In dismal display of wastefulness.
Polluting the beautiful waters,
That were mine to sail,
Freely, if only I had not feared
Their depths.