Scares Me Really Poem by Leslie Alexis

The darkness — the darkness within – the darkness that surrounds me
I thought it was a dream,
But it has been a long time now, and I did not wake up.

I saw myself falling,
Falling… and falling… and falling
At first, my pinnacle caved in
Like a cake upon which the oven has been opened too quickly,
(Those that made me were impatient, and I came out undone)
But it didn’t stop there; I caved in on myself -
Like the death of a star, I destroyed my being
Taking all my light with me… into my new world of darkness
Many good goes in, but nothing ever comes out
I have become a black hole
That’s not visible to others, as I live in a world on darkness..

Laying within my breast, juxtapose and between my breath
Is the centre of my new being-
A heart that has been stained with the darkest darkness
And filtered, so that all that which was good has been removed from the
blood
My blood no longer supports this thing called life,
For Life’s definition no longer lives within:
I may be standing,
I may be walking
But, I assure you, I am not living.
Trills no longer bring me laughter,
Or excitement
Nor hardship or death,
Sorrow
My existence has just been brought to naught,
And this shell has just a memory of the place where me used to be…

Do not come near me
For your light shall be sucked in, and then your entirety
And you too, shall become this thing that I am.

Copyright © 2008 Leslie Alexis