Shadows Vs. Light Pt.2 Poem by Shelby Renee

My eyes have seen a sight that haunts my memory with shame..
Pollutes my thoughts with fear..
Fills my heart with worry and terror...
Brands my mind with the memory..
And then that very same wheel of misfortune and terror spins in circles...
It Blurrs my vision until that sight that has brought me so much confusion is the only thing I see...
I was forced into a journey to the shadows while I dreamt...
Not the light where the Pure Angel sits and tries to find all those who are lost...
But the shadows...
The shadows that people should fear. The shadows that no light can ever enter...ever...
And on this journey to the shadows.......
I saw myself...not me...but the me I use to be..the confused person that caused pain to peoples hearts...
She was a dark figure of memory....memory that causes emotional pain...memory that knows no forgiveness...only pain
...the Evil Angel, with wings as black as night, had his-self wrapped around her...
Those wings that stretch as far as the never ending night..Those wings as dark as the starless sky that covered the shadowy pit where he hides...those wings tucking her into themselves...
They circled around her, hugging her, keeping her close...
But she wasn't trying to run....she was hugging him back...
She wasn't trying to escape this black pit of terror and pain...
She was smiling....smiling at me....waving me to come closer...
Telling me to come forth..but I did not budge...
The Evil Angel's eyes were locked tight on me...peircing me...pulling me in...
The dark figure of who I was had her arms wrapped around it...hugging it tightly...but never breaking her yearning glare at me...
Was this my fate? ...
Was I to be a prisoner in chains and chattle..yearning for a way out? ..
Never seeing the light of day again.. being clothed with the wings of the Evil Angel..caked with the mixture of dirt and shadow on my skin..
Is this pit of shadows and despair my fate...
Or was this just a warning...a reminder to not go back to my old ways...
A warning of what will be waiting for me if I return to my old self...
Fate.....or warning..?
Whatever it is...wake me from this dream, Pure Angel.....