Should I Lift My Eyes Poem by Lawrence S. Pertillar

Ride with guilt?
Sit harnessed to remorse?
Take a backseat to happiness,
And choose a more abusing course?
Gamble a peace of mind...
To share grief,
It took years to leave?
Me?
Should I settle for disappointments,
From others who feel...
My 'gifts' they annointed?
And I am not in praise,
To elevated their dazed crazed ways?
OR...
Should I lift my eyes with gratitude?
And thank God my life...
Hasn't been spent infighting with them,
In a dare not to split...
Someone's flapping lips.
Or have found myself by now a stowaway,
Aboard a cruising ship that drifts!