Still Sad Poem by Lauren Cannone

Look inside of my brain,
I swear you won't find much,
as I watch the pouring rain,
that used to be your touch,

What can I do to make you less sad?
how do I go about staying around?
I'm never a safe bet,
but I feel safe on this ground,

Mistakes now unfold,
frozen blood in my veins,
passion remaining untold,
you're eyes were never so tame,

Laying on my bed,
picture you wrapped up in my sheets,
don't leave a word unsaid,
can you feel my weak heartbeat?

Forcing back another sip, it burns you on the way down,
I fear that in the vodka you will drown,

Waiting for the smoke to clear,
forgetting to breathe,
you won't hold me near,
if you said 'come with me, '

and I hoped you'd take my fragile hand,
fly me somewhere beautiful, and show me how to stand,

They told me that love is a risk,
and you and I just got hit, I just wanted to be missed,

Not sure how the morning will find my body,
caught in oblivion, my face to the wind, so salty,

and I am wishing now that those waves would carry me out,
only to return when my body is washed up and found,
I just need you to know,
That I am not leaving you alone,

I won't sleep because my Earth has stopped spinning
I can't eat because no one is winning,

As I feel nothing now, why couldn't I let you love me?
My heart of ice cold stone,
I should admit to my truths,
We don't have to be alone,

I try not to concentrate as I'm falling apart, you'll sober up
face to face with your empty cup,
they say 'it's just around the river bend, '
don't say that this doesn't have to end.