Tears Don'T Help Poem by aubrie sandidge

tears run silently down my face
i never let you see the suffering you cause me
would things be better if we were never together
it hurts to even ask myself that question
still i cant help but wonder
maybe my life wouldn't be filled with all this pain
maybe i wouldn't spend every night crying myself to sleep
in some ways i feel more empty than before
in others i feel completely full
if i let you go
i let go of everything that is important to me
but if i stay with you i will lose myself to depression
each decision extremely painful
there is only one thing i can think of to get me out of this hurt
suicide
but if i chose that
what would happen to my loved ones
would they blame themselves for my selfish act
i can't stand to see anyone i love hurt
and even if i chose to end my life
i would die knowing
i disappointed everyone
i guess i have no easy way out
pain is all i will get in both life and death